Like lots of other situations, cancer is highly individual. Every case is unique, so I have never understood why people would compare one to another, repeat anecdotes about other cases etc. They are not relevant to any particular patient.
In my case, I know that I have a super-aggressive kind, and that I'm stage IV. That means that things could go either way and while the support and prayers and kindness of so many people have kept me buoyed up and confident, I am aware that the scale could tip the other way.
Yesterday, I went to see Dr D. As we pulled into a waiting parking spot, I told Reuven that I have no idea why we had the appointment. How far off could I be? The tumour that is an indication of what's going on with the rest of the squatter clan (see an earlier blog post), has shrunk significantly. Even more shocking was the news that contrary to our total understanding of the situation, I do not need to have a mastectomy at all. Surgery to remove the lymph glands and affected area in the breast, yes, but 'there is absolutely no medical advantage to a mastectomy'.
This was shocking in the good sense. Dr D was beaming and almost bouncing up and down and I know that I was fighting off tears. Not that my boobs are anything to write home about, but I did not relish having two horrid silicone lumps to shlep around like reverse humpbacks.
I don't think anything is over until it's over, but I wanted to share the good news with all.
I am crying. This is so good to hear! I pray for you a lot Brenda and your friendship is very dear to me. Keep getting better and better and stronger and stronger and beat this thing! Love you!
ReplyDeleteTo my dear Brenda,
ReplyDeleteAfter having read your e-mail and your blog, spoken to CHana on the phone and chatted to Adam on fb, I am more and more amazed at how you, a very special woman, is dealing with a not-so-easy situation with such optimism, strength and needless to say, humor! Just by the way your writing is so good that I think you should publish this diary. This is great news from your doctor. that is such a relief to hear. i am also inclined to believe that in addition to the treatments, your mind is controlling the matter....i almost feel as if i am getting energy from your optimism. I am dying to talk to you personally on the phone but I understand that you might not be reachable at the moment and respect that. if you are available let me know and i will call. Meanwhile, just know that I am thinking of you all the time, and sending you loads of love and hugs. Suzie. xxxxxx